As far as the whole 'keeping up with this blog' thing goes... I pretty much suck. But in all honesty, nothing has really happened to me. Well, nothing has really happened to me that I would share. Currently, I'm searching for a job and a place to live and slowly transitioning into the adult world, i.e. not living in my parent's house. And that's not interesting AT ALL.
But going back to the living-with-my-parents bizz... I love my hometown and I will defend it to the very end if anyone ever tries to give me lip. But upon my return, I'm reminded of why I left. Suburgatory. It's not completely awful. I mean, we've got pretty much everything here from shops to food to other general amenities. Besides the fact that I run into at least one person I knew in high school whenever I go out, I just can't live here anymore. I view this town as the place where I grew up and with that come a million different memories both good and bad. When I went to college, I wanted to escape those bad memories and make a fresh start where no one knew me and I could be someone who wasn't already fleshed-out by other people's opinions. I made a great life for myself in college and had the privilege of knowing and interacting with many amazing people.
Coming home, I find myself back to square one, albeit a little more mature and further down the road education-wise. It's not that I'm treated like a teenager; but everywhere I go I'm reminded of who I was when I was a teenager. And I'm not overly fond of my teenage self. I was just....stuck. Just there. After being on my own for the past five years, I find it difficult to transition back here. I feel backwards. I don't do regression. While there are people here who are my age, I just don't fit in with them. Maybe some people don't feel this way about their hometowns. Maybe their hometowns are amazing! Stars Hollow anyone? It may just be me and my melodramatic self but I'm ready for a change and I'm ready to move on.
-Mossmonster
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